Instability and Love: A Conversation About Family, Addiction, and Recovery

What does addiction look like from the outside? In this deeply personal conversation, yoga teacher Jason Crandell sits down with his brother Todd Crandell — founder of Racing for Recovery and a 30+ year sobriety advocate — to talk about growing up together, the chaos of addiction in a family, anxiety, self-compassion, and what it takes to heal.

This isn’t a yoga episode. It’s a conversation about brothers, family trauma, recovery, and the instability that addiction creates for everyone around it — not just the person struggling. If you’ve been touched by addiction, loved someone in recovery, or are navigating your own mental health journey, this one is for you.

Topics covered:

• Growing up together — hockey, skateboarding, and finding identity
• How addiction creates instability (not just for the addict) -Anxiety, nervous system regulation, and coping skills
• The path to sobriety — what actually flipped the switch -Self-loathing vs. self-compassion in recovery
• Parenting, family healing, and the long road back -Why helping others helps you stay on your own path

⏱ Chapters

0:00 — Introduction & context

6:00 — Growing up: hockey, skateboarding, and identity

15:05 — The path to yoga and San Francisco

28:03 — Anxiety, nervous system, and coping skills

32:40 — What addiction looks like from the outside

35:15 — The instability addiction creates in families

50:45 — Self-loathing, self-compassion, and healing

1:03:30 — Helping others as part of your own recovery